tired & uninterested

Trapped here. Missing you. Unable to change anything without hurting myself or others.

I’ve became fully medicated. The side effects of my brain becoming balanced have passed. Idk how to describe how I feel now. But I can tell it’s extremely different than I ever have before.

Welp. I got a job, then quit it in two days. Then two weeks later get another job, quit that before I even start because I got a better offer from a Finnish software company. Now I make 70k+ a year working for a company in Helsinki. I’ll be out of the country a good bit more now too. This past month and a half has been a wild ride.

Hey I did something of value at least to myself. I cleared The Omega Protocol and I’m the 14th best Machinist in North America for FFXIV

catchymemes:

Welp I got a job. Good news it pays 28/hr. Bad news it’s an hour away in Norcross

The depression is hitting hella hard and I’m only on my second day of not having a job. I told myself I’d give it a month to find another IT/InfoSec job, but after that month I’d actually rather die then go back to driving semi trucks.

pup-punk:

just a simple conversation

about nothing much at all

couldn’t keep me in the room,

I just kept walking down the hall

and now I understand just what a fool I’ve been

and no matter what the context

I won’t have that time again

I’ve kept it bottled up and to myself in the cellar,

Kept for my ever-changing mental health

(via pettykittyx)

foolishcrow:

the sexy girlbots are returning. nature is healing

lyrics-and-music:

Shh! // Stand Atlantic